3/20/01- I will try to write at least once a week. Things I have found out, how I am feeling, and things such as that. I hope to be able to maybe help someone, the way so many have helped me.



3/27/01- Stress is still very high in my life.I know this does not help my body, so I am trying to find other ways of releaving my stress. I am seeking out people who I enjoy to be around and who also enjoy my company. I am finding, along with my health, I have lost my friends and have found I have become a very unsocial person. Another aspect of what I do not like about what I have allowed to happen to me. This has to change. I am a people person and have always enjoyed being around and with people. Now I am feeling anxiety when I think of going in social situations. It does not help that my own husband has told me there is not much he cares to do with me. But I can not blame him, my weight is very grotesque. I fear losing the man I love with all of my heart because of what I have done to myself. I pray we can hold it together long enough for us to get through this. If we do, we will surely be the stronger for it.

3/30/01-I am really trying to get rid of stress. I know it is a small reason my weight is still on me. But today is a good day. I am hopeing to have more and more as time goes on. I am learning to throw my burdens on God and to ,as the book says, not sweat the little stuff. I am confident I will be a succes in my life as I slowly turn things around and make lemonade out of my lemons. The best to everyone today. :-)


4/2/01-Good Morning!!
Today is a beautiful day. The sun is shining and the birds are singing. A truly stupendous spring day!! :-)
I am off to do the weekly shopping with my DD. Then home to clean up after a great weekend with the family.
Life can be wonderful!! You just have to let it. Something that has taken me a long time to learn. Trying to keep a positive outlook. Today is a good day, I hope to have more and more of them as time goes on.

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